In the last couple of weeks, I had been thinking about going up a level with First Aid. I enjoyed the First Aid course more than I would have thought, having gone there initially out of necessity. It was not something that I would have volunteered to do, but now that I have done it, I feel empowered and want to level up. I want to be able to do more.
Yesterday was a wake-up call. I had such an emotional response with the teenager dying outside our office late yesterday, that I felt uncertain about leveling up. Can I emotionally cope with more advanced injuries, I don’t know.
I had to seek advice from my dad, talking to him about doubting myself now.
It is not the first time that I have seen a deceased person, I can deal with blood and gore and broken bones sticking out.
Then why did I have this severe reaction to this child, could it just be that it was a child, that he went to the same school as my son and the thought of losing my child to death in any way what so ever, will send me to the loony bin.
I would not have thought it was because of death, as I saw that before.
It might just be that combined with what happened, it being close to home, then going home to hug my son, who then falls down the stairs. Bending his foot all the way back in an odd position, him crying out in pain. The scare of it being broken, when it swelled up to twice its size and bleeding under the skin from a popped vein.
Waking up several times last night, the first person I thought of was my son, tiptoeing to his room, checking if he is breathing. I haven’t done that since he was weened off of diapers. He is fifteen now. My hand resting on his back, I send a prayer to the Lord, asking Him to “please” keep my son healthy and alive. I do not want anything to happen to him, I don’t want to lose him. He is my precious.
Then going to back to bed, all I could think of was the parents, having to cope after losing their son.
The question is;
Can I cope with severe injuries and other deaths? Should I level up on my First Aid.
I still haven’t decided, putting a hold on making that decision.
But what if I come across an accident and I am the only one around, if I haven’t studied further, would I have all the knowledge necessary to save this person’s life. Regardless of emotional responses.
See! This is why I blog my thoughts, I have just answered my question.
Yes I will go and level up. The reason; even though I might not be able to be emotionally distant, I could still possibly save a life. That in the end, is what counts. Psychologists are readily available all over the place.
Be Prepared at all times. Just in case.